hmmm, i learnt alot of things fr the ID service yesterday. "Unintentional Negative Programming" this speaks to me. really. i m a superb -ve person. even b4 things happen, i will thot of the -ve outcome. example, cindy asked me to share in cindesheep, i will tell myself.. huh?? cannot laaaa.... CMI. [cannot make it] low self-esteem. low confidence level. ok. but was oso quite shocked of wad kris said. a research in 1987, 77% of ppl's thots r -ve. can u imagine if there's another research of ppl's thots in 2005? sure is a higher percentage rite? the 911 incident. terroism, tsunami, bird flu, sars.... blah blah blah. alot of more causes. u see ah... even when u chat wif a person, if the person keep haix haix haix. u will oso dampen ur mood rite? well, i dun like ppl sighing. cos i dunnoe wad tp reply oso. hahas!! though i m a -ve person, i dun haix. hahahas!! weird? hmm.. all this really affects all of us. including my spiritual growth. i dun wan the devil to control me. cos we r victorious already!!~

ok. back to today our chongster + cindesheep. soul ties. hmmm... oso learnt alot. cos it links to all of us. not only me. is this quite the same as bondage? ok. i always like to tink. guess some of u noe ba. i like to think about alot of things. oso like to dwell in matters which i shouldnt dwell in. i dun like ppl mentioned about the past, yet i chose to dwell in tat matter. ok. sounds stupid to u? yahx. i listen to those sadd songs. made myself sadd and think of him again. waste time waste my brain cells. hahas!! hmmmm.. keep on thinking of him. it already happened and ended yrs ago. yet, i tink of him and become sad again. hmm.. God must be very disappointed of me. guess He had been telling me.. gurl, this matter already ended lerx. story ended. the book is closed. actually not really thinkin of him la. it's tat matter. mayb tat's an unforgettable matter and lesson i learnt in my secondary skool days ba. a good thing? yahx. God allow this to happen for a reason. i mus remind myself of tat..........

yupx! now i noe lerx. so must not do the same thing again. friends, brothers and sisters~ plz remind me k. whenever i say any -ve things of u or myself, plz correct me. thx thx............
shy || 5:33 PM

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